Fighting Pre-Imposter Syndrome

As I near the end of the developmental editing process and wait to begin line edits, plans for promoting my book and crafting my author brand are underway. While I'm very excited for this process and can't wait to share what Contrarian has cooking, I've noticed that my levels of fear and apprehension are on the rise.

I have diagnosed myself with "pre-imposter syndrome". Why "pre"? I figure that I can't have actual imposter syndrome given the fact that I have no actual success to feel insecure about. I'm just actively worrying about releasing my first "child" into the world next year and how much I fear she will be rejected.

I'm new to the publishing industry--greener than a grasshopper--but I know that the market is extremely competitive and often unrelenting. I also know that there are many incredible authors out there, and that even they are torn to shreds on occasion by scathing Goodreads reviews.

Like any self-respecting (and realistic) author, I do not write for fame or fortune. Making money doesn't hurt, but I'm honestly just in this to share my creations with the world. This comes at the cost of baring my soul to the universe, and it's becoming more and more apparent every day just how terrifying this is.

I'm a naturally optimistic person, but I am also highly critical of myself. My intrusive thoughts as of late have focused on telling me that my writing is garbage, my stories are trash, and that I am about to be humbled more than previously thought humanly possible. It's hard to balance these feelings with my excitement of seeing my cover for the first time and discussing the possibility of pre-order perks. The emotional flip-flopping has been doing a number on me, that is for certain.

Reminding myself that I am "living the dream" is one of the only things keeping me somewhat level-headed. I've worked really hard, and I have a lot of people cheering me on. My book won't be for everyone, but what book is? I will be happy if at least one person enjoys my story. My fear hasn't stopped me before, and it won't now. It's time to be brave.

In other news, Forgiving Fate is now officially Alison's Adventures in Time! The cover is almost done, and I can't wait for it to be revealed. The artist has done a fabulous job bringing my requests to life.

Additional rounds of edits, plus exciting things I can't yet share, are why I haven't posted here in some time. The next post will likely be when the cover has been shared and/or when line edits are completed. With deadlines approaching, focusing on the final edits are my top priority. Things are heating up fast!